A few minutes ago I watched a video by WSPictures on Youtube entitled “Love is All You Need?” and it really inspired me to blog about it. Also, if you haven’t watched it yet, go watch it! It is such a sad, but good short film. And since it’s told from an innocent child’s perspective, it might change your views on some things. Now, it didn’t change my views, but it made me realize that I really have a lot of questions–a lot of questions to which I may never know the answer .
So, if any of you have read my “About” page or some of my other posts in the OOC, you might have learned that I am a Christian. Yes, I am a Christian, which makes this issue of homosexuality even more difficult for me because although I’m a Christian, I am not ignorant to the fact that a person can’t help who they are attracted to or for whom their heart longs. I’m living proof of that as are my parents and my brothers and sisters and countless other people out there in the world. I don’t go into class or into church or into the store, look at someone, and then tell myself that I’m going to be attracted to this person. If I’m not attracted, chances are I’ll never be attracted, and I definitely can’t force that. I, and probably many other people, cannot force myself to go on a date with someone to which I’m not at least a teensy bit attracted. Have you ever been in a relationship and you realized you didn’t love the person and probably never would but you stayed in the relationship to see if somehow you could force those feelings upon yourself? It just doesn’t work. Now, since I’ve never been attracted to someone of the same sex, I’m speaking from a heterosexual perspective, but is it really different than those from a homosexual perspective?
No. I don’t believe it is any different. If I saw a woman and was attracted to her in every sense, (emotionally, sexually, etc.) I know that it would be really difficult to nearly impossible to rid myself of those feelings because, I mean, was it really me that chose them? That leads me to questions with God. Since I believe it is almost impossible to choose who you’re attracted to, does that mean God puts that attraction into you? And if God puts that attraction into you, then why is it so wrong to be homosexual? I wish God would just stand right in front of me and tell me the answer, but the chances of that happening are slim.
So, do I still believe homosexuality is a sin? Yes, to a certain extent, since the Bible says it is. But, at the same time, I can’t help but question that, since I don’t believe you can choose who you’re attracted to (oh no! ended a sentence with a preposition!). Sure, having sex with someone is purely choice, but when it comes to attraction, it’s not choice (at least I don’t believe it is).
Whether you’re heterosexual or homosexual, you heart chooses what it wants. If you can control that, then I think you are a very amazing person indeed, because I haven’t met one person who is able to control who it is that they love (romantically, of course).
Is there a way to stop be gay/lesbian/homosexual? Coming from a Christian who has been raised as a Christian all her life…I can’t answer that. Some of me says yes. Most of me says no. I know this doesn’t help many people, but I really do not know. I don’t know if I’ll ever find the answer to my questions, but one thing is clear to me: just because someone is different from you, that doesn’t give you the right to persecute them.
I think I’ll write a book about this. I’ve already got some great ideas. Maybe you all should look for it on the shelves a few years from now hehe.
Okay, while it doesn’t seem like I said much of anything in this blog post, (since it’s really difficult for me to put my thoughts into words since they are so confusing and there are so many of them) I just wanted to share some of my thoughts and questions about homosexuality and Christianity.
Oh! And here’s a link video. You should watch it. Either from their official YouTube channel here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCoFoKvfc6Y
Or from their official website here: http://www.loveisallyouneedthemovie.com/